Lateley, there have been struggles I went through and still on going to get through..

*I got cheated by a ruthless fraud asshole who pretended to be a nice and trusting relative. That could have been a down payment for a car or a house maybe. But, “Thank you, asshole for stealing” coz I don’t know how to sleep anymore for finishing everything early in exchange of a one-month pay.

*Jun resigned a few weeks ago. He’s one of my team members in DMS team. He hardly cope up with the programming language that is not so familiar to him and to add the pressures that I put on him.

And so, Romel, another team member who sent his resignation that I read 5 minutes ago in my yahoomail. Got another one too. Who’s left? It’s only me, the new Denny and Dianne.

I may be too harsh on pressuring them but it’s not me who puts on pressure. It’s the schedule!

Goodluck Denny, the pressure’s on us.

*My contract is ending on July.. Soo near that I have to think — really think of where do I go from here. Will I stay or rather go to see what’s behind “that” door.

I’m just very happy now that I got a raise. Other than that is very sad.

So many things to sigh about..

There you go, for the second time around, the most unreliable storage device once again failed me - The Hard Disk. But this time it’s in an enclosure so I can carry it anywhere.

This guy who has been hanging around our team for less than a week carelessly and unintentionally broke it by just leaving it someplace that it fell down almost a meter high.

All files gone.

Memories can’t bring back.

Music that I won’t hear again.

I feel handicapped.

Dec 03 it is. Time is going too fast eih.

- Few weeks from now, friendster, myspace, multiply, yahoo, skype, blogspot, linkedin, jobstreet, jobsdb and every websites that contains information about me will be updating one field.

- I haven’t seen Jerahmee since we graduated from College. I think I miss her.

- Mare, get a new fs account by next year. I miss our blogging.

- Sorry Rd for delaying the seminar. Hope to have that on January and I wish you’ll have more powerful PCs by that time.

- I hope I can buy lots of Watusi! Celebration is not complete without em.

- Let’s pray together for a higher Christmas bonus and more aguinaldos!

- I hope Aunt Lyn will prepare Turkey in our party.

- I’m excited to see my poging poging cousin Bryant from Chicago and his cute little bro, Sean!

The year is about to end, however, workloads and problems seems to last forever… But a little glimpse of happiness seems like these problems never existed..

Nice december-one smiley moon btw.

Yeah, Stresstabs gives me real stress. My first time to drink stresstabs last night but to the most unexpected result, I almost puked and got a lil dizzy. After I had one tablet, I felt starving like I haven’t had my burger steak dinner. I wasn’t minding my stomach just when it “growled”.

So when I was starving to death, we went to the 24-hour “tapsilogan” (oh, btw, it was 10.45 pm) which is like a half-kilometer away from the apartment. I was feeling dizzy at the time we were walking. It was torture, I would say.

.. Along our way to the canteen, we saw fresh blood in the middle of the street with a lighted candle beside. Prolly there was an accident.. That almost had me threw up!

That was my stresstab moments.. so memorable ayt?

Just a few things to appreciate my life to the fullest:
(arranged by poriority)

1. Audi R8
2. Taylor Acoustic Guitar
3. Marshall Guitar Amplifier
4. Electric Guitar multiple effects
5. Eletric Drumset
6. Globe Visibility
7. Tag huer watch
8. Samsung Omnia
9. 100 pairs of Clothes and shoes

I can die if i’ll get all these. Just give me at least one year to enjoy them. haha.

As of now, I have 0% of this list.

I guess I still have to live then…

My boss just called me for a meeting 2 hours ago about the overwhelming news. I got new responsibilities, challenges, projects and new people to handle. All at the same time!

This will be my first time to handle people professionally. Since I can’t really say that I was successful handling an organization in my College days.

When I built an organization back in College, I wasn’t really delegating tasks to my team members. I almost did everything. But NO REGRETS really. It wasn’t a total failure. I call it - my first step.

There are two things that I should learn: (1) Time Management and (2) Task Delegation.

I just hope and pray that He’ll guide me throughout these challenges I’ll be facing. I know there’ll be my bosses to back me up.

If you read this, you’re the second person to hear this. :p
Who’s first? haha. :p

I must say… Thank you boss for this new challenge. I’ll do this.

-k

Guess what?! I’m awake for 30 hours already and still counting..

I feel painful on my back. Shivering with the coolness of ac. Trying to think and use my brain. And pretending that everything is ok on my body system as well as with the computer system that we’re presenting.

I’m in the Senate of the Philippines and I’m blogging right now while my boss is on his presentation.

These guys (audience) don’t have ideas what we’ve been through just to get to this presentation and still have the guts to say that they might not get our product and say that we’re just number 2 on their list?!!

Yeah, I know, they’re clients and they’ll always act as clients. I get it.

Look, I’m just tired.. and need a good damn sleep!

Tsangs spend their time to bond for the hopefully-not-the-last-time. Took an absent from work just to maximize the time together. It was fun and enjoying having her eating with me, watching movies and sleeping beside me.

We laugh, talk, smile, walk, sleep, not-sleep, eat, drink and get sick.

Knowing that she’ll be gone in a few days makes me feel sad. But remembering the time together is something that I can hold onto for the next couple of years before she comes back.

Now it’s time for me to re-gain the focus on my work, get that dream and make that money.

I know they’ll always be tsangs. There were a lot of changes, but was amazingly better!

Though it was not inexpensive to hang-out with you. haha lmao

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I lost my purse with my money that was supposedly for buying a new Zen MP3. The worst thing is that I lost it inside our apartment and I’m sure about it. Can’t blame me if I’d have doubts with the housemates and won’t trust you anymore..

Not a long time after learning about my lost purse, I have told a friend, Maika, bout it. With his kindness and pity on me , he gave me his advance gift for my birthday. Yoohoo! Guess what, a new MP3! But it’s still in cash and I have to buy it myself though. hehe.

Thanks for the Bday gift Maika! Where’s my X-mas gift?? lmao

-k

“sabihin mo na kung babalik ka pa
para di na maghintay
sabihin mo na kung aayaw ka na
para lang malaman ko
hmmm…”

This song really gets me to feel having on those shoes. Makes me feel bad and sad everytime. My heart is like breaking into pieces with the violin sound which makes me wanna cry.

Zelle

I’ve been listening to this song in five months already but it was just last thursday when I saw Zelle. I didn’t even know that Zelle is a band.
When I hear this song, I can see a face of a girl sitting alone in an arm chair in an empty background, staring into nothingness, legs crossed, feeling the heart ache.

Kainis. Sabihin mo na kasi!

Lately, I’ve been sound tripping to Five Years of Sugar Hiccup and Sabihin by Zelle. Hearing those beats and strums makes me wanna go back to loving that music again.

I’m into guitars and drums lately. It somehow brings that other side of me who rocks the hell out.

Sugar Hiccup, where are you?!

Guys, share what you know about these bands.

-k